No matter how broken I felt during Scotty’s injury and recovery, I had a sure faith that God was in control. I had no idea how, why or what it was going to look like, but I knew I was being held.
During this time everything I had read and learned in the Bible became real to me and I could see it was our opportunity to live it out. Even in our darkest days when I would cry by myself I knew I was not actually alone, yes I had deep sadness and pain, but I also had faith and hope that this was not the end and that God can take broken, helpless lives and make them well and whole again. It’s all over the Bible, and for the first time in my life, it was all I had to hold on to.
Two weeks after Scotty’s injury I came into his room with a plate of food, it was a learning curve for both of us to accomplish simple daily tasks, like should I say, “hold out your hands I’m going to place a plate in them,” or do I just set the plate on his lap so he feels it, or do I ask him if he wants a tray and have him put his hands out to feel it? Going from sight to total blindness was a new adventure for both of us, we had to find a way to adapt to even the simplest things that we took for granted. This one particular day, he was laying in bed and he simply said when I walked in, just set the plate on my legs, okay I thought, so I did.
During that time, I think he always felt like the spectacle, he felt we were all staring at him, even while he did the most basic things. So this one time after I brought his plate in, he told me to close my eyes, okay I said, and then he told me again, “close your eyes, are they closed?” Yes, I said, then he shuffled and moved and sat up in bed. When I opened my eyes, I saw him sitting up with his plate in his lap and nothing spilled over, I asked why he wanted me to close my eyes, he said so I would have faith. Faith that he could do even the most simple things like sitting up in bed with a plate, faith in the unknown, faith that God could use us, tragedy or no tragedy, it was the simple things that gave us the greatest faith.